I wrote the following post on November 2nd, 2017 to commemorate a significant anniversary. My husband, Keith, almost died in a car accident on Monday, November 2nd, 2009; some of his injuries included a shattered hip and pelvis, a broken jaw, a punctured lung, lacerated spleen, and a traumatic brain injury. He spent four months total in the hospital, a nursing home, and acute inpatient rehab before it was safe for him to come home, but he still had a great deal of outpatient rehabilitation for the next 2 years in order to walk again, be able to feed himself, speak, think logically, and many other things that we take for granted every day. He still can't drive and is hoping to go back to work soon. God used this time to draw us closer to Him and burn away sin in our lives, a process that continues today. I like to reflect on the anniversary of the accident and take stock of what we have gained and lost; praise God He always gives us reasons to continue trusting and glorifying Him.
November 2, 2017
Today marks eight years since our lives changed in a split second; eight years since we lost the life that we had barely begun to live together, and then started a new one. Eight years of the death of dearly held dreams, and the realization of new ones. Eight hard years that we never would have chosen for ourselves, and yet we cannot help but be thankful for. Eight years of mixed emotions; of sadness and joy, of despair and hope, of frustration and gratitude; of relationships lost and relationships gained. Eight years of trusting that God was still in control, despite how we felt. Eight years of defeats and triumphs, of lost opportunities, and the realization of new ones.
In the end, it wasn't even enough to have each other, or to have our faith. We can't hold onto each other, for we are too weak at times. We can't hold onto our faith, for that too is weak and imperfect. No, what we need, and what we will always have, is a God who holds onto us.
Although we have both seen the depths of our own darkness, we have realized that the light of Christ shines all the brighter because of it. We used to say that if God used our sufferings to redeem the lives of other people, then this would all be worth it. But, would we still say that today?
Absolutely, unequivocally, yes.
The apostle Paul, who suffered much more than we ever have, wrote almost 2,000 years ago:
"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God. For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies." Romans 8:18-23
We have learned to find our joy in Christ, and in so doing, have found the highest and greatest joy possible. Our hope is that Christ would continue to be glorified in our lives; that people would not look at us, and give us praise, but that they would look to God, and give him praise.
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